That, and that too

Found a choir singing Om So Hum on YouTube, a recording of over an hour. I've been listening to it for two days straight now, it's become the background sound of daily - miserable - life.
"I am That" is what it apparently means. I don't know. It just removes me slightly from the pitiful feelings and thoughts that have been coming up like weeds. There's no end to them.
I am That.
All those pathetic small-minded worries and fears. And the birch tree, swaying in the sun, spraying seeds everywhere against the bright blue sky.
The first time I heard the recording I cried a bit, it got to me.
Lots of crying and insecurity again lately. Does this shit ever end? I can't tell anymore, it seems endless and forever. Until I die.