Cycle
I'm still in the 'down' period. Within a few days from now, I'll also be having my monthly period. In sjamanism it is believed that more power is available to women when they are having their cycle. I don't know if I really feel that, but because it's definitely something of all ages, I have started to give it more meaning.
(I believe one can consciously decide which things have or deserve more meaning in one's life. This is also a part of how I choose who I want to be.)
It usually coincides with a point at which the one-step-back-period comes to an end. This week this is true for sure for me, because the end-test for new developments is mostly a visit to/from my family and they are coming tomorrow. My mother, sister and heavenly little niece. I bought some delicious food to spoil them, hope I'll get atround to cleaning my house too, but that's something entirely different.
Sometimes, when I thought I had changed a lot, I would visit my family and feel completely drained during the stay and afterwards. It would frustrate me because I hoped I would be able to finally act normal, without whining, feeling left out or like the black sheep of the family.
I don't see them that often (few times a year), so I would get a sense of losing precious time and consequently kick myself for not being able to get out of that state of mind. Of course it doesn't help a lot if you keep kicking yourself, so in the end I would go with the flow and hope that it would be better on the next occasion. I'm curious as to how it will be tomorrow.
I ordered Jed McKenna's second book: Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment. Even though I barely have enough money to buy me some decent food, this to show how important his first book was and is to me. I read it and felt that he is enlightened and that state touched a chord inside of me, it seemed so familiar, it simply rang true.
I have believed for some time now, that if a so-called 'spiritual master' doesn't have a sense of humor he is not to be trusted. It's very important to be able to laugh at yourself, to not take yourself too seriously, humor is the gravy of life and a guru who gets angry when someone critisizes him or mocks him.. well, I wouldn't trust him with MY money and certainly not with my soul.
Look at the Dalai Lama's beautifully smiling face, radiant with love and pleasure, how can you not trust a man like that?! He has a smile that lights up his face. I want that too! I'm already cultivating wrinkles in my face that developed from laughing and smiling and I couldn't be more proud.
More later,
***M.
(I believe one can consciously decide which things have or deserve more meaning in one's life. This is also a part of how I choose who I want to be.)
It usually coincides with a point at which the one-step-back-period comes to an end. This week this is true for sure for me, because the end-test for new developments is mostly a visit to/from my family and they are coming tomorrow. My mother, sister and heavenly little niece. I bought some delicious food to spoil them, hope I'll get atround to cleaning my house too, but that's something entirely different.
Sometimes, when I thought I had changed a lot, I would visit my family and feel completely drained during the stay and afterwards. It would frustrate me because I hoped I would be able to finally act normal, without whining, feeling left out or like the black sheep of the family.
I don't see them that often (few times a year), so I would get a sense of losing precious time and consequently kick myself for not being able to get out of that state of mind. Of course it doesn't help a lot if you keep kicking yourself, so in the end I would go with the flow and hope that it would be better on the next occasion. I'm curious as to how it will be tomorrow.
I ordered Jed McKenna's second book: Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment. Even though I barely have enough money to buy me some decent food, this to show how important his first book was and is to me. I read it and felt that he is enlightened and that state touched a chord inside of me, it seemed so familiar, it simply rang true.
I have believed for some time now, that if a so-called 'spiritual master' doesn't have a sense of humor he is not to be trusted. It's very important to be able to laugh at yourself, to not take yourself too seriously, humor is the gravy of life and a guru who gets angry when someone critisizes him or mocks him.. well, I wouldn't trust him with MY money and certainly not with my soul.
Look at the Dalai Lama's beautifully smiling face, radiant with love and pleasure, how can you not trust a man like that?! He has a smile that lights up his face. I want that too! I'm already cultivating wrinkles in my face that developed from laughing and smiling and I couldn't be more proud.
More later,
***M.
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