How low can you go

The process is in waves; peaks and lows. This low is deep, and taking it's bloody time.
In my experience it's better (or more favourable) not to act when feeling like crap, because crap things tend to happen more often, as if gravitating towards the person feeling like crap. Lots of crap to go around.
But, living alone means I have to go out for groceries. I can get away with not cleaning the house for months, but my body needs food and such. When I left the shops an egg exploded just 3 feet away from me. Luckily I was on my bicycle, so most of the stuff missed it's target. But when I feel like this, it's as if people are out to get me (woe me et cetera, partII). When I'm sort of centered stuff like that doesn't happen.
Not much is needed to get me feeling like this lately; crumbling on the inside. A walking open wound.
It's a bit like after my period starts and I'm so horny I have to lock myself in the house and not come out for several days in order to prevent myself from jumping the mailman. On the other hand, it might be something completely different.