Just be

Cycling to the gym this morning, I was once again head-butted by an insect at full speed and from the weight and sound I deduced it was a bee - again. (Wasps feel crispier.) 

I'd been lost in thoughts and questions and knew immediately this was the Universe's way of telling me to just be.

I laughed out loud: just bee.

I reconsidered the shoes about to drop, hidden behind the Universe's back; they might be a pair of dancing shoes. An invitation.

Something in my chest relaxed this week. It released yet another wave of panic and fear, which I'm in the middle of right now, but even filled to the brim with anxiety there's something different. 

I am still aware of the presence of God all around me, softer now, maybe fading. 

But when I come out of autopilot or I've been lost in thought, it's the first thing on my mind. Everything is breathing presence.

Let's take it as it comes,

We'll see

In the meantime

Just be.

 

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"Your feeling of cheese regulation will improve." 

I am following along with YouTube Qigong exercises set to automatically generated subtitles. And I like cheese, so I'm highly motivated.