Enlightenment sucks

How on earth did so many misconceptions about enlightenment come into existence? How is that possible? How come it's supposed to be so overwhelmingly wonderful when everything I read from folks who are awake makes it seem dull, simple, normal, banal even, surely nothing to be desired. How could people have been so wrong? Including me, but at least I didn't claim to be enlightened. I just wanted to be, not realising what it was. Now that I have the faintest of clues, I'm not so sure it's what I want anymore. The only problem is that there's nothing else that I want.
How could anybody want this? I can't imagine anybody desiring a state of being so disappointing compared to what has been written about it, mostly by people who think they know, but don't. Christ! And this has been It? That Great Important Thing I was born to realize? I feel cheated out of something vitally important to me. Nothing to take it's place as well. No meaning to life whatsoever anymore. Just life itself which pretty much sucks what with the pain thing going on and such.

M.