Just a thought

Some old sadness came over me this evening so I shut off my phone, which seems to happen quite often lately. I'm trying to walk more, which is rather difficult because the surroundings are so dreadfully boring. I got out my roadmap which I'll use to pick a place, then take my bike and go there for a long walk, afterwards I'll cycle back home. That's the plan, hope it works. At least until the dojo is cleaned up again. Normally I really don't have the patience to go for long walks.
Something is changing inside of me, I feel it in my body, something is shifting. I feel sadness, fear and warmth at the same time. Don't know what it is, don't care where it came from. I don't have a topographical map and I don't want one either, I just follow my instincts. If the universe wants me so bad, it can come and get me, I'm not going anywhere.
Since I don't know what else to do, I'm reading Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment for the second time round, and this piece for some unclear reason touched me deeply:

"The only way to burn karma is to burn ignorance, which is the same as burning self because ignorance and self are the same thing. Ignorance isn't an aspect of self: it's the essence of self."

It's important, that's all I know.