Choke-hold

To know something, to be aware of it, sometimes still isn't enough. Stuff gets deposited in the body. Since I wasn't allowed to feel this shit, it got stuck there, even though at times I could see clearly the patterns behind it. It has to cycle through, out of the body. 

That's probably why ghosts learn so much quicker, they don't have to process everything through a dense body; when they literally see the light, they're off. Understanding is elevation.

Here it's decades of cycling through garbage. Processing, working through until it gets near the surface enough to be expelled/dissipate. 

In this case. Every story is different. In this case all the feelings, emotions, fear, expressions, got stuck in the body. Everything. Literally constricting my breath.