Phone notes II

Next note: "You think you are special because of your misery, you're proud of it." Yes, I wear it like a badge of honour, like a war injury.

I identify with it. Can I let that go as well? I am not my experiences. They might have helped shape me, but they were the fertiliser, not the rose.
Mh, it actually feels okay. I had all day to mull it over, so I guess I can leave it at that for now.

Next. "In the back of your mind, you're still perceiving this as something to do while waiting for your real life to begin, real as in a job, a man, kids. You're looking too far ahead, just do the next thing that comes along, there's no need to decide now, to choose between two 'possibilities'. The universe does that for you, it already has.
Just do the next thing. Don't bother my pretty little head with such matters? Exactly."
That's not even relevant now. It was this morning, but it isn't now. Apparently things happen when I'm not looking, when I'm not consciously working on it. The process continues to unfold. But so fast!! How can this morning be so long ago? That's how it works.
Mh, less work for me. Onwards we go.